Do I deserve this?

Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is one of the worst feelings in this world. You question yourself what did you not do for that person to love you back? Am I flawed? What’s so special about that other person who’s so lucky to get your love without putting in even half of the efforts I put for you?

If you ask me what’s love, I would say it’s friendship. It’s a beautiful journey from being friends to being best friends to lovers. If you’ve completed this whole journey I would say I envy you. I do.

You can pour your heart in front of them and not feel judged, you can do all sorts of weird things in front of them, most importantly you can be yourself and feel loved for who you are.

We all come across such a human at least once in our lifetime. You just get that vibe of knowing each other for years when it’s just been months talking. We feel loved, protected, and most importantly lucky to have found “your person’’ and you would never want to let go of them.

When we find our soulmates according to us, we would do everything in our power to keep them in our lives even if it is costing us our happiness. When you love a person there is always a tiny part of us that is terrified about losing that person one day.

When that person, our person abandons us, we feel lost, we feel we’re not worthy enough. You just want to stop that ache in your heart at that moment.

Was loving you a mistake? Did I not love you enough? Most importantly did I deserve this?