I’m changing, they say.

I’m changing they say. You’re not that girl anymore who’s always there for us anymore. You’ve got this different attitude. You’ve changed your perspective toward people. You’ve changed the way you smile. Your tone has changed.

I’ve got this a lot in this past month, from my friends, family everyone who I deeply care about. I don’t blame them I know I have. Everyone sees the change but no one sees the reason why I changed.

According to me, each person goes through different weathers in their life. Currently, I’m in the summer of my life. If this is what peace feels like, I’m glad I changed. Not giving any answers, not having my heart broken by everyone, not being there for the people who don’t hold any value to me in their eyes, not crying every night myself to sleep.

Sometimes I do miss the old me, but it’s better to keep her buried in my heart than to get her out in the world of people who have given her a million bruises. It’s not that I’m out of love, I’m just out of hope of ever receiving the same love I bring to the table.

It’s a bit lonely, but better this way.